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AMBER

Written by Alex Hoffman

Thought someday I’d be myself
Or that I’d be someone else
Seems my life’s been planned out for me A wife three kids and all the glory

I don’t see what all the fuss
Is about the two of us
We both know we can’t be alone
We both know we could be at home alone

When I’m alone

When I’m alone

When I’m alone with

 

WITHOUT CONSEQUENCE

I’m here now
I won’t be later
You said somehow
That’s a good enough reason
To trust you with a body
That bends and bleeds and breaks Caught inside the crossfire
Of a heart that can’t relate

That was so profound Let’s get naked
You’re allowed
To cry when it’s over
Isn’t it so beautiful?
With all our broken pieces Honey are you using me To have a better weekend

Blame it on our fleeting youth
Or a nihilistic point of view
I was not seeking an excuse
We fucked cause that’s what people do With loneliness and a steady hand Lust is boredoms sweet revenge

I was not looking for a friend

I wanted love without consequence

Pour one out
For someone we both miss...

 

 

LET GO

When I came to
You’d come and gone
And in my sleep
Stolen all the things I loved And in that blue, blue water I washed away my scars But your words
Stuck to my skin like salt

Lie to me
But say it with a smile Persuade me
That passion never dies Convince me to

Let go

If only I knew
What this would cost
And how my greed
Would slowly tear our lives apart In that lonesome forest
I found out who I was
But your words
Stayed buried in my heart

Lie to me
But say it with a smile Persuade me
That passion never dies Convince me to

Let go

If change is good This is best
If every exit

Is an entrance somewhere else When I have to leave here
I’ll never look back

 

 

A RELIVING

Don’t let that morning sunshine fool ya Tomorrow is today
Nothing really changed
Your Sunday morning hallelujahs

Still reek of Saturday
That ain’t sunshine in your veins

The struggle isn’t pretty
No matter what you’re missing Whoever you end up kissing At this party all alone
An end is a beginning
If you’ll only keep forgiving Each day is a reliving
A melting heart of stone

Don’t let that sleepless beauty take ya She’ll steal your petty change
Your body’s not a bank
Her lips may whisper hallelujah

But they’ll leave a rotten taste That ain’t beauty on your brain

The struggle isn’t pretty
No matter what you’re missing Whoever you end up kissing At this party all alone
An end is a beginning
If you’ll only keep forgiving Each day is a reliving
A melting heart of stone

 

 

WHALE SONG II

Waves they roll
In the breeze
Palm fronds dance the way That you once did with me Whale swims by

Whistling
To himself the same damn songs You used to sing

I’m sorry baby that I got so high
I forgot which ocean colors your eyes

Clouds obscure celestial blue
You prefer the gray Honey, I preferred it too Thunderstruck,

our shores erode In the tempest You a home

Im sorry baby that I got so low I forgot the love that drowns us Lets us grow

Time can’t heal
A timeless wound
We speak pleasantly
But skirt around the truth The seas appeal
Such a lovely hue
The love you found for me I could not find for you

 

 

WALKING AWAY

Written with Lindsey Sweat

Walking away everyday from your soft eyes Did you think the ocean would run dry Sailing away everyday from your smile drawn out with the tide

Where did you go honey
I would have gone with you Why carry on alone

Plans that we made, floating away with our time

V2
Now i can tell you've been hiding yourself like a child

Locked in a cell the tension you felt within your mind
Did you know the door was open wide
Now I can tell you've been hating yourself, and all the while I’m fighting for your life

Why did you cry honey
I would have cried for you Why carry on alone

awake in my sleep, all of my dreams are your songs
the way that you’d sing and the swell of the strings when you lost yourself awake in my sleep, all of my dreams are your songs
promise you’ll sing to me still, after you’re gone

Are you alone honey
I would have died with you

 

 

THE ONLY TRUE CONSISTENCY

My chemical dependencies Lined up in a row
Will you hold me tenderly When my demons start to show The only true consistency

Is that you’ll never know
The next time I’m gonna leave Or why I have to go

Will you follow me still? Love I know you will

All your best kept secrets
The balance of your brain
The certain combinations That have drive you insane The prideful tears you swallow An anger you can save

The world is much less vibrant Than the pictures that you paint

May I follow you still? Love, you know I will

Blame it on the distance

Write it off as fate
Fault is not my forte
We miscommunicate
But beauty is persistent
The longing in our ache
In my broken-hearted tendencies Let love reciprocate

Would you follow me still? May I follow you still? Love I know we will

 

 

 

SPIN AN OLD RECORD

Spin an old record
Spin your whole life away
You can’t stand changing the music But you’ll change your name

You need someone younger Someone with oceans in her eyes I’m just a kid by the numbers
But I’m ready to die

Sing for me softly
Sing with what’s left of your voice Time takes its toll on forgiveness And it takes your choice

You need a companion
Someone to rewrite all your wrongs I’m wearing through with the sadness I’ve made in songs

 

 

MONTAUK III

When the price of coke’s gone up The money’s running out
Pack up all my hindrance
Head down to the south

I hear that work is steady There’s a woman I could love Truth told, I’m not a praying man But I’ll ask the lord above

For family, wine, and walls around The places I get stuck
Some time out on the water
A chance to teach my son

That failure is a mindset
All the foul things that you’ve done
If you give them to the ocean
There’s a good man you might still become

The devil and I walked down
To the tifton county line
There’s a flask inside my pocket Liquid blood orange moonlight

I didn’t know revival
Could be planned an advertised
But an Easter dressed beauty
Walked right up and changed my mind

She said family, wine, and walls around The places we get stuck
A cool night on the back porch
With a smiling newborn son

Failure is a mindset
All the sinning that you’ve done
If you give it up to Jesus
There’s a good man you might still become

Feels like I just got here
I guess the time rolled gently by Same preacher at the graveyard Where we buried my poor wife Couple headstones over
Flag draped red, blue, and white
My baby boy at 18
To the Great War, and I feel no pride

Cause I couldn’t keep the walls around The people that I loved
I suppose a man can’t ever pay
the weight of who he was

Failures been my mantra Lord I tried to give it up

Spread my ashes on the ocean
Finally forgotten, a good man to become

 

 

SOFT GENTLE BRILLIANT II

I see it in the center
Of every living thing
A bird circles the ocean
Or a cat falling asleep
The stillness in the void
That swallows all your questioning Answer honestly
You can only let things

Be the way they are Everything is Happening now
All that exists

This precious moment Darling you hold it
Let it go

I feel it in the places
And the people that I meet
A thousand ways to say hello Only one real way to leave They hustle in their cities Saving up to purchase peace All my wandering
You can only learn to

Be here now Everywhere’s the same Look inside
It’s all you can rearrange Your precious soul
Is all you can truly hold Let it go

Let it go
Let it be
Be here now
Along with everything

 

 

ROWEN’S LULLABY

Hush child as the ocean Your mind and emotions Aren’t calmed by controlling Close your eyes and sleep

Dream a perfect place Where every wave
Curls to continue Breathe when you awake That perfect place

Exists within you

Someday when you’re older The world will seem colder If you need a shoulder
You can come to me

Dream a perfect place Where every wave
Curls to continue Breathe when you awake That perfect place

Exists within you